Okay so I've always sucked at doing Math, but I'm coming up with some pretty interesting figures right now:
November 12- The day that BASTARD K gleefully told me that somebody saw L making out with some random at a party
November 14-Beginning of an internship
Feb 12-L's birthday
Feb 13-FB msg from L stating shock that I committed the sacrilegious act of not wishing him
Feb 14-Difficult Valentine's day, since usually L's Bday and Valentines Day were always a double whammy celebratory weekend for us :(
March 9-First call on cell(that I wasn't around to answer) from unknown Indian nummber, and although I still never stopped secretly wishing that every call from a strange Indian number, would be L, little did I know that one should always BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR
March 10-L calls and I speak to him for what must have been an hour..he states that he misses me, loves me and I do the same(Needless to say there are lots of tears).Conversation ends on a happy note, and we are more or less back together in our usual warped,self-destructive quest
March 11-On my way to work I call L just to confirm that I hadn't dreamt it all up.YES , I know we have call logs for a reason, but how was I to make sure that I hadnt spoken to some other person in my sleep!We make plans for L to come visit me here.
March 11 Afternoon-Rationality kicks in and I realise that I do not want to undo all the progress I've made...Resolve to call L up and tell him that it was a momentary lapse on my part,and we are not good for each other and must just finally close our twp year relationship chapter gracefully.
March 12-Have run out of balance to reply to L's texts.Put off talking to him till the next day.
March 13 morning-L FB msgs me demanding an explanation for why I haven't added him back....and his usual suffocating streak begins kicking in...I,ofcourse, do not want to add him back, and tell him that I will call him soon, because we need to talk
March 13,10:50 pm-Now have sufficient balance on my cell, but cannot seem to muster up the courage to do this.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Bits and Bobs
A few things I learned today:
1)Taare Zameen Par still makes me cry buckets, though ofcourse watching it on the big screen with L's shoulder to weep on is a different experience altogether.*Note to self-After initial pacifying L was disgusted by snivelly snotty me and said "It's only a movie dude." True sign from up above that L and I could never be.
2)Mr. High and Mighty is not only married to an annoyingly sweet-faced round Bong girl, but also drives a Mini Cooper...Will somebody please tell me how high that would make him rate on the coolness scale please?
3)Friends are strange things...Sometimes you have them and sometimes you don't.Stranger still-people who once proudly bore the title of BFF with you and posted incessantly on your wall telling you how much they loved you every two hours sometimes become strangers.o-kay lost count of the number of times I've said sometimes and stranger.
OMG today I found my long-lost childhood friend N. Online. FACEBOOK I WORSHIP YOU!
4)Weird things excite me...Today for example, I was thrilled at the prospect of going to watch Alice in wonderland in 3D ...Would you believe that I've never watched anything in 3D!
5)Cheese popcorn with a huge mug of coffee(and generous heaps of Coffe Mate)make for the best after-work snack.
6)I no longer feel odd to not have a boy constantly texting me and checking in on me fifty times a day.REALLY!
7)My mother gets this glint in her eyes if given the slightest opportunity to pluck ingrowths from my legs...(That's really not as gross as I made it sound)
8)Maybe my father does have a point when he says that looks are not the only thing I should look for when chosing a life partner.
9)It's been a year since I graduated from college and in three months I turn 22.My mother had me when she was 22 for crying out loud.Age is a big fat bitchy aunt who constantly does the tarantella on my head!
10)I need to listen to music when I shower in the morning,while I'm getting ready and on the bus to work.Any disturbance in this routine is a surefire way to kickstart a horrible day.
11)And just because I like ending lists with odd numbers..."and all that jazz" is now officially my favourite phrase.
1)Taare Zameen Par still makes me cry buckets, though ofcourse watching it on the big screen with L's shoulder to weep on is a different experience altogether.*Note to self-After initial pacifying L was disgusted by snivelly snotty me and said "It's only a movie dude." True sign from up above that L and I could never be.
2)Mr. High and Mighty is not only married to an annoyingly sweet-faced round Bong girl, but also drives a Mini Cooper...Will somebody please tell me how high that would make him rate on the coolness scale please?
3)Friends are strange things...Sometimes you have them and sometimes you don't.Stranger still-people who once proudly bore the title of BFF with you and posted incessantly on your wall telling you how much they loved you every two hours sometimes become strangers.o-kay lost count of the number of times I've said sometimes and stranger.
OMG today I found my long-lost childhood friend N. Online. FACEBOOK I WORSHIP YOU!
4)Weird things excite me...Today for example, I was thrilled at the prospect of going to watch Alice in wonderland in 3D ...Would you believe that I've never watched anything in 3D!
5)Cheese popcorn with a huge mug of coffee(and generous heaps of Coffe Mate)make for the best after-work snack.
6)I no longer feel odd to not have a boy constantly texting me and checking in on me fifty times a day.REALLY!
7)My mother gets this glint in her eyes if given the slightest opportunity to pluck ingrowths from my legs...(That's really not as gross as I made it sound)
8)Maybe my father does have a point when he says that looks are not the only thing I should look for when chosing a life partner.
9)It's been a year since I graduated from college and in three months I turn 22.My mother had me when she was 22 for crying out loud.Age is a big fat bitchy aunt who constantly does the tarantella on my head!
10)I need to listen to music when I shower in the morning,while I'm getting ready and on the bus to work.Any disturbance in this routine is a surefire way to kickstart a horrible day.
11)And just because I like ending lists with odd numbers..."and all that jazz" is now officially my favourite phrase.
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Black Robes-Overrated Much?
I'm sad and angry and stark raving upset all at the same time. I've missed another "milestone" in my life.How is it possible that this always happens to ME-self professed keeper of memories.I missed the grade twelve class picture because I happened to be sitting at the orthodontist's getting a mouthful of braces fit in.I missed my college convocation(read pretty candle-lighting ceremony) and now THE ACTUAL DEED OF GRADUATION DAY ITSELF!
And before you ask what the big deal is...Ummm H-E-L-L-O in any normal girl's life this momentuous occasion comes almost as close in sentimentality to the day one gets married, has a baby and watches same baby take its first step...I'm going to cry at how sappy I'm becoming....You'd never think that the same person who detested college for three years and always took the opportunity to liken same institution to a jail is now getting all teary-eyed.None of my school friends will ever let me forget,how I the biggest school basher was the first one to start pathetically snivelling at our farewell assembly...GOSH...I'm off to bed and more determined than ever to go out and buy a baby book TOMORROW for the unborn fruit of my loins ,just incase I somehow manage to forget to preserve a lock of hair or throw out the umbilical cord...hahhahaa..okay I admit that made me giggle too,but then again,I've always gotten off on the Drama Queen act haven't I!
And before you ask what the big deal is...Ummm H-E-L-L-O in any normal girl's life this momentuous occasion comes almost as close in sentimentality to the day one gets married, has a baby and watches same baby take its first step...I'm going to cry at how sappy I'm becoming....You'd never think that the same person who detested college for three years and always took the opportunity to liken same institution to a jail is now getting all teary-eyed.None of my school friends will ever let me forget,how I the biggest school basher was the first one to start pathetically snivelling at our farewell assembly...GOSH...I'm off to bed and more determined than ever to go out and buy a baby book TOMORROW for the unborn fruit of my loins ,just incase I somehow manage to forget to preserve a lock of hair or throw out the umbilical cord...hahhahaa..okay I admit that made me giggle too,but then again,I've always gotten off on the Drama Queen act haven't I!
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Xcity (NO THIS IS NOT AN EX BOYFRIEND RANT)
Consistency has always been something I suck at,and this blog seems to be dangerously perching on the edge of my usual excited One Week Frenzied Project Territory.Also I'm very forthcoming about the fact that I AM A BEGGAR FOR PRAISE and since I like to think that stringing sentences together is one of the few things I'm decent at,I'm rather disappointed that nobody eaves comments!Even mean ones would be more welcome...I mean whoever said "Hate and love are the same things just on different ends of the spectrum" obviously nailed it right!
Anyhoo, today I took a rain chutti, and boy does it feel good to just sit at home and have nothing to do,instead of stoning at office pretending to look all busy.
For the past few days, I've been having these unsettling dreams about L,and then I wake up,tell myself it's okay and go back to sleep.It's so so odd!I wish he would stop haunting me in my sleep.One of the main reasons I resent L so is because of the fact that I dont like Xcity anymore. My love affair with Xcity began in my second year of college.Good friends,endless rounds of parties and a happening social life in general added the much-needed zing to otherwise blah conservative city.And then L enters my life towards the middle of second year, and now in retrospect that was pretty much when things started going downhill for me. I'm also super pissed that I'm not going to Xcity for graduation,primarily because the parents don't want me to, and most importantly it's because I feel it would be like opening a can of worms again...TOTALLY unecessary....especially since I'm at a decent-ish place now. Since I don't have anything more meaningful to blog about I'm going to jot down a few reasons about why I used to love Xcity(this is ofcourse, before breakup with L):
1)Xcity is where I really grew into my own person.From being one of the geeky girls in high school who dreamed about having a happening life,I actually became that girl.Needless to say lots of boys involved.And then I met L.But thats not such a happy story, so let's not go there.
2)I love how everybody knows everybody in Xcity(everybody worth their salt that is dah-ling..sorry to sound like a snot).One of the favourite games my friends and I used to lvoe playing was making little mental flow charts of mutual people we knew and how a was connected to b who was connected to c and how although a and b were an item a was totally fucking around with c.In Xcity anybody's business becomes everybody's business, and I'm pretty proud of the fact that I NEVER GOT BUSTED for my many flings when i was dating L..yes i know..I AM A BITCH WHO WHINES ABOUT L WHEN ALL THE WHILE I MADE OUT WITH LOTS OF BOYS BEHIND HIS BACK,BITE ME OKAY! CUZ REALLY NOBODY SHOULD POINT FINGERS WITHOUT KNOWING THE WHOLE STORY-READ L'S PSYCHOTIC POSSESSIVE ABUSIVE NATURE.There that should shut you up a little.
3)College in Xcity was more like a three year endless party, as father once wryly declared.I mean its a miracle that i got through college with decent-ish grades.
4)Sentimental Addas-HAHA I cannot believe I used the word adda, its such a Hindi slang-ish word that i picked up in my short stint in Ycity..Anyway, I had a fun circle of gal pals and we had these shady little joints that every collegian has.So a particular Coffee Day was our after college smoking adda.The kind of place where your on first name terms with the waiters and you're also familiar with the three other "gangs" that chill there with you everyday..Looking back I feel like an old lady and chuckle when I think about how we could sit aimlessly(and am sure still can) for five hours at a stretch everyday.Anyway, so once the no-smoking rule was implemented we shifted to the steps of this shady complex next door to our college,where we used to sit on the steps and smoke.The profound philosophical conversations we've had there ranging from feminisim to Freud never fails to amuse me.A chaat joint a stone's throw away from college was another favourite haunt and the best part about our poor college students day was how we could get by with a hundred rupees and eat some of the yummiest food for a week.
5)Ladies Nights-There were two very very popular watering holes in Xcity that were an especial favourite with the fairer sex.At the first more posh one you got two cocktails free,which isnt that exciting considering that they really water down their drinks'.Hey but beggars cant be choosers no and so many of my guy friends have whinged endlessly about how unfair it is, because we would walk in with not a penny in our pockets and be treated like little goddesses.Ooh and they also had posh finger foods.Crackers and exotic dips anyone? Second place was super popular with the college-going crowd and Ladies Hold your Breath...you could have AS MANY drinks as you wanted till 10oçlock.It was quite amusing actually because at 9;55you'd see all the ladies in the house frantically chugging their vodka sprites and guzzling down as many free refills as they could possibly hold at the bar till the clock chimed 10.
6)Okay at the cost of sounding vain.......in Xcity I always had an incessant supply of men.Its true and I thoroughly enjoyed and revelled in all the attention.So i had boyfriend L who was totally into me(nd guys, everybody I know will tell you this.The boy was madly in love with me, maybe thats why now it comes as a slap on my face that he seemed to be able to move on just fine) AND other boys.*sigh*
Anyhoo, today I took a rain chutti, and boy does it feel good to just sit at home and have nothing to do,instead of stoning at office pretending to look all busy.
For the past few days, I've been having these unsettling dreams about L,and then I wake up,tell myself it's okay and go back to sleep.It's so so odd!I wish he would stop haunting me in my sleep.One of the main reasons I resent L so is because of the fact that I dont like Xcity anymore. My love affair with Xcity began in my second year of college.Good friends,endless rounds of parties and a happening social life in general added the much-needed zing to otherwise blah conservative city.And then L enters my life towards the middle of second year, and now in retrospect that was pretty much when things started going downhill for me. I'm also super pissed that I'm not going to Xcity for graduation,primarily because the parents don't want me to, and most importantly it's because I feel it would be like opening a can of worms again...TOTALLY unecessary....especially since I'm at a decent-ish place now. Since I don't have anything more meaningful to blog about I'm going to jot down a few reasons about why I used to love Xcity(this is ofcourse, before breakup with L):
1)Xcity is where I really grew into my own person.From being one of the geeky girls in high school who dreamed about having a happening life,I actually became that girl.Needless to say lots of boys involved.And then I met L.But thats not such a happy story, so let's not go there.
2)I love how everybody knows everybody in Xcity(everybody worth their salt that is dah-ling..sorry to sound like a snot).One of the favourite games my friends and I used to lvoe playing was making little mental flow charts of mutual people we knew and how a was connected to b who was connected to c and how although a and b were an item a was totally fucking around with c.In Xcity anybody's business becomes everybody's business, and I'm pretty proud of the fact that I NEVER GOT BUSTED for my many flings when i was dating L..yes i know..I AM A BITCH WHO WHINES ABOUT L WHEN ALL THE WHILE I MADE OUT WITH LOTS OF BOYS BEHIND HIS BACK,BITE ME OKAY! CUZ REALLY NOBODY SHOULD POINT FINGERS WITHOUT KNOWING THE WHOLE STORY-READ L'S PSYCHOTIC POSSESSIVE ABUSIVE NATURE.There that should shut you up a little.
3)College in Xcity was more like a three year endless party, as father once wryly declared.I mean its a miracle that i got through college with decent-ish grades.
4)Sentimental Addas-HAHA I cannot believe I used the word adda, its such a Hindi slang-ish word that i picked up in my short stint in Ycity..Anyway, I had a fun circle of gal pals and we had these shady little joints that every collegian has.So a particular Coffee Day was our after college smoking adda.The kind of place where your on first name terms with the waiters and you're also familiar with the three other "gangs" that chill there with you everyday..Looking back I feel like an old lady and chuckle when I think about how we could sit aimlessly(and am sure still can) for five hours at a stretch everyday.Anyway, so once the no-smoking rule was implemented we shifted to the steps of this shady complex next door to our college,where we used to sit on the steps and smoke.The profound philosophical conversations we've had there ranging from feminisim to Freud never fails to amuse me.A chaat joint a stone's throw away from college was another favourite haunt and the best part about our poor college students day was how we could get by with a hundred rupees and eat some of the yummiest food for a week.
5)Ladies Nights-There were two very very popular watering holes in Xcity that were an especial favourite with the fairer sex.At the first more posh one you got two cocktails free,which isnt that exciting considering that they really water down their drinks'.Hey but beggars cant be choosers no and so many of my guy friends have whinged endlessly about how unfair it is, because we would walk in with not a penny in our pockets and be treated like little goddesses.Ooh and they also had posh finger foods.Crackers and exotic dips anyone? Second place was super popular with the college-going crowd and Ladies Hold your Breath...you could have AS MANY drinks as you wanted till 10oçlock.It was quite amusing actually because at 9;55you'd see all the ladies in the house frantically chugging their vodka sprites and guzzling down as many free refills as they could possibly hold at the bar till the clock chimed 10.
6)Okay at the cost of sounding vain.......in Xcity I always had an incessant supply of men.Its true and I thoroughly enjoyed and revelled in all the attention.So i had boyfriend L who was totally into me(nd guys, everybody I know will tell you this.The boy was madly in love with me, maybe thats why now it comes as a slap on my face that he seemed to be able to move on just fine) AND other boys.*sigh*
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